Dear friends,
The last two days have been very emotional, fearful, and full of anxiety. It hit me hard yesterday morning when I realized the week was coming and I was going to be all alone for the first time in a year. I have been so dependent and am used to being cared for, so the thoughts of suddenly trying to live on my own again has caused me a great deal of fear.
I know I will be okay and will learn a new normal, it is just going to take some time and patience. Being home with my family is wonderful, but I have to admit, I miss my parents terribly, especially my mom. I will never be able to fully thank them for the time they spent with me so that our family could continue to function. As I reminded Scott when he would feel bad that he wasn't the one with me, "Someone in this family has to work and care for our child."
I have been able to get out and took a nice walk with Scott on Saturday and hit Walmart with the family yesterday (which wore me out!). My girlfriend Rose and her kids came over Friday night and brought stuffed shells. She and I watched Mamma Mia, which was a lot of fun!
If I can just get past this anxiety I am feeling, I will be able to start to enjoy my new life with new lungs. Please pray that I can.
Thank you all so much! Nancy
You've Been Given the Gift of Life, Give it Back!
7 comments:
you have amazing parents who put their life aside for you and your care. your dad worried every minute of every day. know your husband and family will be able to take over and do their best for you.
claire, harley, goober and moxie
you have amazing parents who put their life aside for you and your care. your dad worried every minute of every day. know your husband and family will be able to take over and do their best for you.
claire, harley, goober and moxie
Dear Nancy,
I felt compelled to write tonight. God wants you to know that he doesn't close a door without closing a window. You've come so far. All will be well.
Still loving you...
Deb
Nancy,
It was great talking to you this morning. Thank you for sharing so much with me. I know you will find your place again in life...it will take time. You are a woman of great strength, and with time, you will slowly find that place where you find comfort and peace. Grant yourself some time to build your strength up and find that comfort again. I know you can do it Nancy, and I know you will do it. Believe in yourself!
I know it must of been very hard for your parents to leave as well. What a great feeling for them though to watch their daughter get a new lease on life. I know you have made them super proud and I know you could not have done it without them. They gave up a lot....but as your mom told me the other day on the phone, she would do it again in a heartbeat!
You deserve the best Nancy and the best is out there for you. Hang in there and know that your time will come to enjoy life and every aspect it holds for you. Take good care and know that I love you so much!
Love and Blessings,
Debbie
Nancy,
Please know that if you need anything..I am a phone call away. Those feeling you have are normal nad with time they will go away--baby steps girl, look how far you have come. We are so proud of you and we are never far away! I love you :)
Bridgette
I know you will get over this anxiety. It is hard to tell people who you love so very dearly good-bye. They are very special people and you, Scott & Hannah are blessed with such wonderful and caring families.
I also know how your parents feel having to leave you. It is hard for all of you. My prayers are with you all. Love to you all.
Nancy,
I'm sorry to hear you've had a rough few days. It's normal! You're normal! One step at a time. This is HARD - but you can do HARD things! You have proved that, for sure!
It will take time to find your "new normal" - any time you want to vent or as one of my dear friends puts it...you have "moaning rights" with me! I'm here for you. Hang in there. You're doing awesome. It's just all A LOT to take in at one time. It's overwhelming for even the strongest of God's children - YOU!
Thinking of you! I tried to call you a few minutes ago. I'll try again this afternoon. Looking forward to chatting with you!
Be well!
Cammi
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